Monday, June 2, 2008

The Dreaded Two Week Wait

Last night I had a very vivid dream.

I was taking my infant son (or daughter, couldn't really tell) to the doctor along with Mr. Salt. The baby was light skinned (around the coloring of my sister-in-law and Mr. Salt during the winter) with really curly black hair. What I remember the most was the eyes. Dark big eyes. Must have came from my side of the family.

It wasn't the dreaded/hoped for fish dream, but I'll take what I can get.

As I stated in the title, I'm in what the "trying to conceive" community calls the Two Week Wait. That period of time after ovulation where you can't test for pregnancy for two weeks (or one week and some change, depending on the test). It's a very interesting time. You either obsess about every little possible pregnancy sign, or count down the days on calender.

Myself, I'm trying to stay neutral. I've had so many BFNs (Big Fat Negative on a pregnancy test, another term from the TTC community) that I'm rather wary about testing myself. The kicker is that I have to test myself if I consider myself late since I have to have a negative test before I start a cycle inducing drug. Luckily, I haven't had to take that drug since I've started on my own (Yay!).

But its really getting to the point where I don't want to buy the blasted sticks anymore. Every negative result chips away at you, and it gets to the point where you just want to get it over with. I don't really test with Mr. Salt is around, though he wants to be there sometimes. He's really seeing my disappointment now, and I don't want to compound things. We're already breaking Navajo cultural taboo with his extensive knowledge of my cycles.

But don't worry. I've resolved that if/when I get a possible BFP (Big Fat Positive) on a test, he'll be involved with the test that confirms it.



Felicity said...

Zhindian, the fact that you are seeing a baby in your dreams, that is telling me that God is sending you one. When I knew I conceived, I dreamt that I was handed a baby. Fish dreams and marrow or courgette dreams are another indication of pregnancy.
Talk over your situation. Start thanking God for your baby, he or she will be born healhty and full term. Keep on saying all the time, while doing the laundry or whatever. This is know as the Law of confession, you talk over your situation. It does not matter what your situation looks like, you talk over it, because you are a speaking spirit and have no doubt in your heart. Lord, I thank you that I am fertile and that my period is regular, I thank you that my eggs are in the very best quality, so I can conceive healthy children. Try at eat a lot of greens, three times a day, plus 5 servings of fruit and vegetables. After you've had your son/daughter and when you want another son/daughter, you say thank you Lord for him/her, I give you all the glory and thank God for a wonderful husband. My email address is available on my blog

Halima said...

good luck!